So I have this terrible, horrible habit of procrastinating. I procrastinate almost everything that I do in my life. I have no idea why I do this because the result is only stress and failure. Right now I have so much stuff to do and things are just piling up. If you have ever dealt with this problem or if you don’t procrastinate at all please give me some tips to break this habit. It might simply mean that I have to get through with this semester in school and then have a fresh start. I am not sure. I think I will start with writing a list of things that I need to do. I am not sure if that works though cause I have done that before and at the end of the day nothing is completed except for praying and eating. 😛 Perhaps if I commit myself to an update I will actually get work done.
Missing Ramadan March 18, 2009
Right now I am listening to a recitation by Salaah Bukhaatir on this site called Kalamullah. His voice reminded me of Ramadan now I miss this month. I miss the closeness that I felt to Allah. I miss crying in salah. I miss so many things about this month. Currently I am taking the Taleem ul Quran Evening Course. I hope that Allah gives me the tawfeeq to be successful and stick with this course. My heart is fluttering at the thought of actually understanding what is being recited at Taraweeh. If Allahs grants me that, perhaps my heart will soften and gush and perhaps I may attain taqwa if Allah wills.
O ye who believe! Fasting is prescribed to you as it was prescribed to those before you, that ye may (learn) self-restraint . [al-Baqarah 2:183] Translation: Yusuf Ali
Ramadan is the (month) in which was sent down the Qur’an, as a guide to mankind, also clear (Signs) for guidance and judgment (Between right and wrong). So every one of you who is present (at his home) during that month should spend it in fasting, but if any one is ill, or on a journey, the prescribed period (Should be made up) by days later. God intends every facility for you; He does not want to put you to difficulties. (He wants you) to complete the prescribed period, and to glorify Him in that He has guided you; and perchance ye shall be grateful . [al-Baqarah 2:185] Translation: Yusuf Ali
This last bold part makes my heart melt. How can we be any way with Allah except humbly submissive?
Lemon Curd Tarts March 16, 2009
I love lemon filling! And I love the flakiness of filo dough. When you put the two together it is utter buttery, flaky, tarty goodness.
Lemon Curd Recipe
(pasted below for your convenience):
grated zest and juice 4 large juicy lemons
4 large eggs
12 oz (350 g) golden caster sugar note: i used raw organic cane sugar
8 oz (225 g) unsalted butter, at room temperature, cut into small lumps
1 level dessertspoon cornflour note: a dessertspoon is equal to roughly 2.5 teaspoons
Begin by lightly whisking the eggs in a medium-sized saucepan, then add the rest of the ingredients and place the saucepan over a medium heat. Now whisk continuously using a balloon whisk until the mixture thickens – about 7-8 minutes. Next, lower the heat to its minimum setting and let the curd gently simmer for a further minute, continuing to whisk. After that, remove it from the heat.
Now pour the lemon curd into the hot, sterilized jars, filling them as full as possible, cover straightaway with waxed discs, seal while it is still hot and label when it is cold. It will keep for several weeks, but it must be stored in a cool place.
This recipe is taken from Delia Smith’s Complete Cookery Course and Delia Smith’s Complete Illustrated Cookery Course.
Now for the Tart Part 🙂
Filo Pastry Sheets
Large Circle Cookie Cutter
Preheat oven to 180 degrees
Stack 4 layers of filo pastry sheets on top of each other
Cut out circles that are slightly larger than the cups in your muffin pan
Spread melted butter on each layer
Restack the layers and fit them into the cups of your muffin pan
Bake the filo cups for about 8 to 10 min. or until golden brown
Once you are done baking the cups gently remove them from the pan and let them cool a bit.
Note: I would check them at 4 min. cause I have burnt my cups before…they burn easily
Fill the cooled cups with lemon curd and then refrigerate. Serve them chilled. They are off the hook in my opinion. The next time I make them I will put up pictures inshaAllah.
On Dreaming February 21, 2009
Not too long ago I woke up from a scary dream. At the time it seemed real, but really it was an illusion. Sleep is also know as the minor death and each time we sleep inshaAllah we wake up to something more real i.e. this life. But still this life is also an illusion and when we wake up i.e. die, we will see the true reality. The dream seems so real and vivid you can taste, see, smell, have emotions and you feel like you have done so much and when you wake up maybe an hour or two has passed. Similarly, when we rise from our graves it will feel as if only part of a day has passed though many of us lived for years. Don’t get caught up in the illusion.
Troubles in Life January 31, 2009
Sometimes I would wonder why “bad” things happen to us. I would think such and such has happened to me because of some sin that I committed. And that thinking would get me depressed and problems would pile high until I could not even raise my hands to make du’a to ask Allah to relieve my problems. I felt that my du’a is not going to be answered so why bother. I thought I am probably not sincere anyways so don’t bother with it. Now I am at a different stage in life alhamdulilah, though I am still fragile…I think everyone is fragile to some extent, so we should never think that we are safe in our level of iman. Not too long ago I went to a halaqa. It was about “…surely Allah does not change the condition of a people until they change their own condition…” (Qur’an 11:13). Many times we complain about all the problems we have. Our families, our financial situation, our looks, etc; We don’t realize that Allah sacrifices our whole life to make us exceptional people. These trials are supposed to make us better people, but instead some of us leave prayer, lose hope in Allah, turn away from Islam, etc; True some things may happen because of our sins, but do not become disheartened. That may be a sign that Allah cares for you. There are many people in this world who experience little discomfort and because of this they deny Allah’s existence and they think all that they have is from themselves and that when they die that will be the end. Nothing more. When troubles come your way look and see what you can learn from them. How can you change? How can you become better? Allah did not create us as some form of recreation, “And We did not create the heavens and the earth and what is between them in sport” (Qur’an 44:38). So don’t think that anything that happens to you is without a wise reason and/or is some sort of sick torture. Have you experienced more trails and hardships than Prophet Muhammad, (pbuh)? But Prophet Muhammad (pbuh) was the beloved of Allah. So don’t lose heart. No matter what you have done or what you are doing, strive to be close to Allah doing what he has commanded you to do. And whatever comes your way look at it as a mercy from Allah. Sins could be removed, you might feel inclined to making du’a, being more serious with your prayers, increased ranks in Jannah, etc; Whatever it is is good. How can you really know “what you are made of” if you are never tested? Tests show you who you really are and inshaAllah if you are patient they will develop you into a better person.
Below is the link to the video:
After watching please thank 60 minutes and CBS on their coverage.